Monday, April 26, 2010


I am a lucky lady. I have the advantages of working part time so I have a good balance in my life. I get to spend 4 days a week with the kids and 3 days at work. I feel like most of the time I'm a good mom. I love to play with the kids and do fun things with them. I like to teach them things and watch them learn and laugh. But I also think I'm pretty good at my job. Although I don't do it full time I have been doing it long enough that I thought I was respected and proud of what I do and what the students accomplish when they are done. But last week someone told me I was horrible at my job. Someone who I work with all the time. Luckily it's not my boss and I have a similar relationship with a lot of other people and they think I'm pretty good at it. But it has hurt my spirit. It has made me question myself and what I do. And it's hard to know what direction to go now. Is it something to deal with head on or should we let sleeping dogs lie and wait it out till the new school year. It's just hard to know where to go from here. It's hard to get up and go to work when your spirit has been crushed. It's hard to try and rebuild relationships when it doesn't seem worth it. It's hard to spend 3 of my days wondering if I am good at my job.

Till Tomorrow



Alexis said...

What kind of person would say that to you? Who is this crazy loser?!? If it is really bugging you, then maybe try to ask them for some constructive criticism ( WHY they think this), but if everyone else thinks your fab, then forget about this one person.

Also, what do the STUDENTS think? Their opinion should matter the most to you.

Susan said...

Hey I think you're fantastic at your job. I would expect that if you took a survey of your collegues they would disagree with the critic. I think you are an amazing mother, daughter, and teacher.

Goofball said...

I understand that such a comment breaks your spirt. it would hit me very hard too and make me doubt as well.

but you also say that you know not everybody shares that opinion. Maybe you need to ask more honest feedback of several people: what do people think you are doing best, why, and why did this other person think the opposite. Maybe you'll find nuances and ideas to work on and to grow even better.
Even if it's hard, it could be an opportunity.

And I really can't believe you wouldn't be good in your job. You sound very passionate about it.

Deena Marie Fusco said...

I think you do a great job! Someone asked me yesterday, "who was that you were talking too" I said oh that was my x ray teacher jenn, she was really good.....

I'll give you back up if you need to fight em :)

Jenna said...

Aw, don't let them get you down! I know what that's like and deal with it a lot in my line of work. It is just one person's opinion, and some people can be very jealous of how great someone is at what they do. ;) Believe in yourself and what you do - nothing else matters. It sounds like you have a lot of people who know you're great. Don't let one loser make you feel any less. Hugs!