Friday, April 08, 2016


Last week we said goodbye to our wonderful, awesome dog.  We've known for the last couple of months that she is palliative.  She had an aggresive oral tumor that was diagnosed in Feburary.  For the last couple of months we did lots of great things with her, took some beautiful family photos, fed her lots of delicious meat, took her to off leash parks and lots of walks.  We gave all the people who love her a chance to say goodbye and then we said our final goodbyes to her. 

Emma was such a great dog, of course she had tons and tons of adventures.  Running across deerfoot, running home from Strathmore, get the foxtails stuck in her throat or the wicker stuck in the roof of her mouth.  All of her escapes, whether from the second story of our house, from Tammy and Pat's yard or trying to dig her way out of Oma and Opa's house.   One of my favourite Emma stories is when she jumped off the dock after a ball and went right under the water, head and everything.  She got to the surface and couldn't care less about the ball or stick.  Swan straight to shore, nothing was going to stop her.   She loved Kelowna.  Maybe not Opa, but all the swimming!  It was always a good vacation for her too. 

I miss having her around.  Whether it be sitting by the front door, or walking to get the kids.  It might be sitting in the front seat or laying on our bedroom floor sleeping at night.  I just miss having her around. 

She was our first born, taught us how to parent, taught us how to put others first, how to not give up on things and follow through.  She taught us how to be consistent and on the same page.  How when you put the work in the rewards are tremendous and life long. 

My constant companion will be missed. 

Till Next Time


Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Proud Mom

We are on March Break this week, so I took the boys to do groceries with me so they could pick out some healthy snacks and some treats. I usually do groceries when they are at school, but thought this would be a good opportunity for me to learn about what they like and spend some time together.  I have taken the boys grocery shopping a lot throughout their lives and they both enjoy it, not as much as video games, but as much as you can enjoy a chore.

Nathan still has the habit of hanging onto the cart, which is something we have to break, cause on a Sunday at superstore, it's important to be narrow through the ailse and the people.  But Lucas likes to 'help' by going and picking things out that are on the list.  It's super helpful!  If I forgot naan bread, he will go back to the bakery and get it.  Then he asked what else he could get.  I was just working on the ailses and Lucas asked if we needed milk.  I said yes and so he went over to the dairy section to pick it out.  When he came back he was carrying two cartons instead of the jug.  I asked why 2 cartons as we usually get the jug.  He replied, becuase it was cheaper.  The cartons were on sale.  I doubt this as milk is almost never on sale. But he said it was and he double checked that it was the same amount, so the cartons were 2L and the jug was 4L.  The cartons were on sale for 1.99 and the jug was 4.59.  We walked over he was correct, the cartons of milk were on sale.

I was so proud.  I love to get a good deal, I love it when things are on sale!  Nathan figured out it saved us .61 cents.

Lucas is often so much like Darryl, but it's always nice to see when he's like me too.  Although as I sit here and listen to the boys playing downstairs and him telling everyone what to do, maybe he's more like me then I thought....

Till Tomorrow


Friday, March 18, 2016

When do you push and when is it personality and when is that a reason?

Last night was parent teacher interviews.  I was working for Nathan's but wanted to talk to Lucas's teacher about her marking scheme so I scheduled that one for when I was done.   We had a good time in his classroom and I got to remember how fun grade 5 is.   When we had our chat with his teacher she asked us about giving him feedback and that she's worried he takes it too personally.  We chatted about if he's ever tried out for sports team or other ways he might get feedback. 

Lucas is a super awesome kid.  Of course I'm his mother so of course I believe that, but even his teacher says it too.  He has a heart of gold.  Today we were at the park and a kid hurt themselves.  He was the first to ask if the kid was okay.  Or at the same park one kid called his brother fat, Lucas was the first to say, Hey you shouldn't call them that.  When I ask him to do something he always does, he's great academically, he's really good at pretty much sport and is a great friend.   We are really proud of him at school too, as he is showing himself as a leader by helping with getting kindergarten kids on the bus and doing crossing guard. 

So with all these great things does it matter if he's not very participatory, or that it can be difficult to give him feedback without feeling that you are hurting his self esteem?  Is there something we should do to help him with those skills or is it just his personality?  And when you say it's just someone's personality is that making an excuse?    All questions I'm pondering...

I think generally it's his personality... Darryl is also an introvert.  In life you can't have everyone be really participatory or things may never get decided.  Different people make the world go around and make the world interesting.  But at the same time if we can cultivate some of those traits that don't come naturally to him that is a good idea.  At the same time I don't want to put him in situations that he really doesn't like.  I don't want to make him into someone that he isn't. 

Ahh parenting, always keeping things interesting.


Friday, March 11, 2016

Winter... so far

I really should try to post more.   Looking at old posts is one of my favourite things to do, plus I love that I can keep a record of my life.   This week Auntie Karen's best friend, her daughter died.  She was 17.  It's so sad.  So so sad.   So I love reading about my life, but it's also a great legacy to leave, someday when I leave. 

Winter has been pretty darn good to us, the weather has been remarkable for a winter.  When there was snow we were lucky enough to go to Hawaii and had a great trip there.  I have never been there so I wasn't really sure what to expect, and really didn't have a lot of expectations going into it.  We were going with a big group, so I didn't feel the same need to research and investigate like I do other times I go on vacation with a smaller group.  

It was a good vacation, fun to see a new place.  Fun to hike and snorkel and boogie board.  Hanalei Bay ended up being my favourite beach in the whole wide world.  It was great to see my whole family interacting and enjoying each others company.  It was great to see everyone trying something new and different.  Funny how kids bring that out in us.  

I'm feeling so grateful this winter for the wonderful relationship my parents and kids have.  There is a different kind of satisfaction to be the link between the two and the happiness you see the relationship has on both parties.   Dad has really enjoyed skiing with the boys this winter.  We have been a fair bit and it's been lots of fun.  It's great to see his pride when the boys accomplish something.  Nathan is a really good student, both in school and on the ski hill.  He will really listen and do what is asked of him.  He commits.  Unlike his mother... and Lucas is a bit more like me too.  So when Nathan really pays attention to my Dad and his skiing improves it's like my dad is glowing. 

What an awesome life I live.  I'm lucky to have lots of great things in my life.  Although I think lots of it is my own decision making.  I'm not sure I always believe in luck. 

Plan on doing more of this recording of my life. 


Tuesday, January 05, 2016

New Year's Resolutions

I had some trouble coming up with good resolutions for the year.  There have been some things floating around in my head, but sometimes it's difficult to quantify.  Mostly this year I would like to work on relationships.  Of course I know this is the a huge resolution.  But it is something I want to work on.  Mostly with my kids.  But also with my husband and my family and my friends. 

I had a conversation with a hygienist last time I was at the dentist, which means it was mostly her talking and me listening, but she was talking about how she'd only ever want one child so that she would involved in their lives all the time.  She would be their playmate and adviser, she would be very active in their lives.  I mentioned how having two is great because they entertain each other.  While I still agree with my theory, it did make me think about how often I disengage with them while they play with each other.  It's funny cause when they are little you pray and hope for these days of self sufficiency and then when they get there you have to make the effort to spend the time with them.  So that is something I'm going to try to focus on more this year.  I find it more challenging as many of their interests are not things I enjoy doing, but maybe even being the room or encouraging them to do things I am interested in.   To make this goal a little easier to qualify and see if I accomplish it my plan is to take the family to a non chain restaurant where we get to try new food once a month. 

With Darryl I would like to plan more date nights.   I have a great husband and person to spend my life with.  He's a great dad and partner, but it's easy to get caught in the mundane of everyday life.  I would like to make more effort to do reconnect and do things together. 

We will see as the year goes on if I have more things I would like to work on, but reflecting over Christmas this is what I've been thinking about and would like to focus on.

I have been doing a regular yoga practice for a couple of years now so I want to continue with that.  Maybe work on doing more practicing at home.  Although I do love my studio.

We have a trip to Hawaii planned for this year and I'm heading to Halifax for a work conference, probably going to Kelowna this year too and maybe something else in the summer.  Plus it's Darryl's 40th birthday and our 15 year anniversary, so hopefully something fun for that.

What about the readers, any inspiring resolutions? Goals? Intents?


Sunday, January 03, 2016


As I've said lots of times on the blog I enjoy resolutions.  I like making goals and trying to be a better person.  I liked last year and set different goals for each month.  Some of them I totally rocked and others.... not so much.

Here's a synopsis.

Jan: Practice piano for 15 minutes each day

This went okay... on and off for the month.  On the days where I felt like I had time, things went really well.  But on the busy days this quickly feel off the to do list.
Feb: Only check social media once per day
This one went great.  Only checked it in the evening.   That being said I didn't feel like it made a huge difference.  In conclusion I'm not too addicted to social media.  It's the thing that falls off my to do list when I'm busy. 
Mar: Meditate every day

Did pretty awesome with this one too....although I count going to yoga and sitting in peace at the start and end of class.  And most days I go to yoga, so it wasn't too hard of a resolution to keep. 
April: Eat at Home Challenge
I can't really remember this one... so my guess is it didn't go very well....
May: Ab challenge
This one started off great, but as the month went on it got too hard!
June: Yoga challenge
This month I doubled up and also did June dresses. Totally rocked out on both of them!
July: Take picture with big camera everyday
This one I did not do great on... started with high hopes but didn't follow through in the month.  Partly cause I travelled a lot and didn't bring it with me  =(
September: Blog everyday

Did awesome!  See all those posts in September. 
November: Plank Challenge

My coworkers came up with a great challenge of doing plank for 30 secs a day and then increasing by 5 seconds each day.  Again with this one started out awesome, till it got hard.  Then it was harder to follow through.  That being said I can do a 3 minute low plank.  Although I have been practicing for a long time.

It was a pretty darn good year of getting better physically.  I feel pretty darn strong.  I went on 8 trips last year! 8!  That's pretty lucky and incredible.  3 of them were work related.  And 2 to Ontario for Lori's celebrations and 3 just for fun ones!  My goal is not to top that in 2016, as that would be pretty difficult.

Now to contemplate 2016....


Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Reflections on 2015

Well it's that time of year again... time when reflect on the end of 2015 and then in a couple of days what I hope for in 2016.   2015 was an interesting year.  It was a bit more of a roller coaster then the last couple of years.  There were some of the greatest goods: (Lori's wedding, Red Rocks, family trips) but also some difficult times too (harassment, surgeries, work stress, relationships).  '

Like 2014 yoga was still a big part of my life and helps me to cope with the other stuff in life.  I don't worry, cause I know it will do nothing to change the outcome.  I let go of bad things cause I know it only bothers me and not other people.  And I breathe, breathe through any stress.  I'm so grateful for the powerful positive force it is in my life. 

As usual I enjoy spending some time looking over the photos of the last year.  Here is a slidehshow of some of the greatness from the last year. 

I'm so grateful for all the incredible things in these pictures.  Shows the beautiful greatness in my life. 

Till Next Time


Tuesday, September 29, 2015

New Music Tuesday

My friend Sidsel posted an article on facebook this summer about how reserach shows you stop listening to new music when you turn 33 and early if you are a parent. 

Today's new music Tuesday is proof they are wrong.

Here are two new pop people.

And an alternative acoustic cover


Monday, September 28, 2015


Coming up next month there is an election here in Canada where we vote for a federal party.  In Canada there are 3 main parties, Conservatives, Liberal and National Demographics.  At the moment it looks like they are in a pretty close 3 way tie.  Which from a lets get stuff done standpoint I don't think is the most helpful. 

I listen to enough news to feel like I have a pretty good idea of what is going on, but the things I really don't like about politics is all the negativity around it.  I don't want to hear about all the bad things about the other parties I want to hear about the good things with your party. 

I live in Alberta the home of conservatives and they have done some good things over the last couple of years.  I like that they reinstated the child benefit tax cheques.  At this point in my life that is more important then affordable childcare at 15$ a day per child.  I put that money towards the kids RESP and the governement contributes 20% more when I do that as well.   The liberal would like to pro rate that amount based on how much you make.  And there is part of me that really agrees with that and part of me that likes that it is equal, no matter how much you make. 

I also like that the conservative are being strict with terriorsts and working to get them out of our country.  I would like it if they worked towards bringing in more refugees from other countries, but I do also think that the screening is necessary. 

I also like when politicians are open and accessible.  I'm looking at you Naheed Nenshi, you are awesome at this.  And the conservatives don't seem to be like that at all.  Liberals seem much more accessible.   And really I like people with awesome hair.  I'm looking at you Justin Trudeau. 

I also think living in Alberta my biggest concern is the economy and the liberals seem to be focused on that, which I also like...  I've done some research with a couple of different online tools.  This one is different and this one I do like better and this one is long but good as well.

Really I'm not totally decided yet.  And there is still a couple of weeks to research and learn. 

Do you have a strong feeling?  Reason?


Sunday, September 27, 2015

Fall Day

Fall has such lovely colors.  Especially from "Nannie's Tree".  Which turns shades of red, yellow and orange.  Here are some fun shots from today. 
 We thought it would be cool to do a slow motion video of the us throwing leaves.  I thought we'd just do it once.  But the kids kept going... I kept waiting for Darryl to stop.  And when I finally gave in and decided I would throw them again, Lucas attacks Darryl with the leaves and Darryl stops the camera....

Hope everyone else had a great weekend!