Building the Wall Back Up

As a health care worker you have to distance yourself emtionally from your patients if you want to survive. When I teach this to my students I usually say you have to build a protective wall. If you don't have soem distance from your patients and what they are going through you would be upset and depressed all the time. Not saying you shouldn't be sympathetic, but if you let every patient effect you, any helathcare worker could do there job for a year and then be done. Only once as a student did my wall come crashing down, but that's another story for another time.

Generally I have a pretty good hold on my emtions, but my wall came crashing down last week. I was called up to x-ray a baby who had just been born. It was as white as a ghost and they didn't want to move them at all. I was composed and took films of the baby, but as I was packing up I could fell the tears welling up in my eyes. I stepped on the elevator to go back to my department and the tears came running down my cheeks. That poor baby, moreso that poor mother. I cried for that baby and that mother. I cried with happiness that my baby was okay and happy and healthly.

I hope that anyone reading this tells someone they love them today or give your kids a big hug. We are so lucky to have had a healthy babies.

I'm not sure when I'm going to be able to x-ray a sick baby again. I'm having to build my wall back up again.

Till Tommorrow

Jenn